You sound like a convicted unbeliever. Are you aware that the
Apostle Paul was the same man who was trained /raised up as a Pharisee that he was a disciple of Gamaleil? do you deny what he says he was about on the Road to Damascus? Have you ignored the Scripture that speaks of Peter being led/ prepared by God to accept this Paul- or was he yet known as Saul of Tarsus then? You are of the world and cannot help yourself- I pray someday you will experience Christ as Saul of Tarsus did on that road to Damascus.Perhaps then we can discus the things of the Spirit as reasonable men.For now your unbelief is a set of blinders keeping you from knowing the truth —and being set free.
Please don’t pray for me to be blinded or have any other somatic symptoms. I am far more positively disposed toward Christians than Saul of Tarsus, so Christ doesn’t need to slam me the same way.
Of course I am aware of those things you ask about, and of course I have not ignored the Scripture. But if you believe we cannot discuss things reasonably, so be it.