Why?
What made you willing?
Did you change your mind or did you change your heart?
I am a PK so in church all my life. I was a rebellious teenager. When I was 17, I remember vividly being burdened under the weight of my sin during a church service. I was in tears. The Spirit was drawing me to Christ but I would not listen. I figured I had plenty of time and I was not willing to give up my sin. I walked out of church and the Spirit left me. Even in my rebellion, I had always believed in God and knew the Bible was true. I knew if I died in my sin I was going to hell. I had always loved church. I became apathetic about life, further distanced from my family after this experience at church. About a year and a half later, the Spirit began dealing with my heart again. I recalled the scripture that God will not always strive with man. I believed that He would not continue to draw me if I didn’t obey this time. So I obeyed. The realization that I may not have a next time really opened my eyes to sse the truth of the situation. I always knew I needed God but I thought I had plenty of time. So I guess I changed my mind.