It’s ok. You are one of several prodigal sons. When you return home the fatted calf will be killed and there will be rejoicing.
Your absence will not be brought up as the joy of your return is celebraated. The family knows you have your reasons for the absence and thats all that need be brought up
What, are you drunk?
It is a life change for the best to leave a family of rogues and thieves, drunk on wine and living by the sweat of another's brow.
Some would call it an honorable and principled decision.