I’ve been in similar circumstances, and worse. My best recommendation is to use this time as an opportunity to make sure you have a relationship with God on His terms. Keep it simple. Simple faith alone in Christ alone and let Him guide your way.
From eternity past, He has had a plan for your life. From eternity past He has prepared to provide logistical grace for every believer who remains in faith through Him and explicitly yourself.
If doors are constantly being closed, even when you are in faith and fellowship with Him, that is a strong indicator that you are not at the right place at the right time to meet His planned place to use your resources, but might also be positioning you in body, soul and spirit to perform where He wants you.
Nobody has to accept that plan, but there is nowhere to run to if one wants to evade Him. He will allow people to run away, but they won’t get anywhere for any significant time.
For every suffering persevered through faith in Him, there is a blessing. On the contrary, without remaining in fellowship with Him, any blessing might become a cursing.
God loves to use the down and out, the meek and disadvantaged, the poor and needy, to demonstrate to the entire Creation His magnificent love and grace.
Bitterness will only damage yourself and scar your thinking processes to further reject love for our fellow man, even when it is justifiable.
Remember, no matter what the situation, He has known exactly from eternity past what your situation is, has been, and will be and has a plan prepared for your best interests. A winner will always place Him first, and let Him handle the situation.
FWIW, the most miserable people I have ever met, have been the some of the most wealthy, influential, and worldly successful people I’ve seen. Riches, power, and order are not excluded from the righteous, but as objects of our focus, they become cursings.
It is possible to be joyous without happiness and that is far more valuable than worldly treasures.
NO More Calls, Please.
We have a winner!
Cheers!
...oh, and Merry Christmas.