I didn’t mean to say that...I meant to say that he wanted to BE his persona, strong and powerful, and able to act upon the bitter violence and anger he had within, and he arranged to do everything towards that end. His persona was the projection of how to act out his anger and be the one who was victimizer, not victim.
It’s still him, but a face, or a mask, if you will, he didn’t feel he could show to other people in everyday life.
It is a form of acting out that a lot of people do. We are all the sums of all these facets of ourselves, but some people compartmentalize pretty strongly. He had a sullen, quiet face he showed to the world, but he wanted to be his warrior, and attack. And one day, he did just that.
That makes a lot of sense. He was very twisted to project his persona into real life. I wonder if he ever perceived himself to be a victim?
More of his personal and private life I'm sure is going to emerge as the days pass. Maybe we'll get a look inside his world.
It’s still him, but a face, or a mask, if you will, he didn’t feel he could show to other people in everyday life.
Personally I've never had that problem, what people, friends and family see is what I am. I imagine the world is chocked full of people like him who compartmentalize, but thank God, don't act out when it reaches a certain point. I guess they just cope the best they can.
It will be interesting in the days ahead concerning him.