Dang! That's just TERRIBLE!
NIV John 3:36
Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life, but whoever rejects the Son will not see life, for God's wrath remains on him."
NIV John 12:48
There is a judge for the one who rejects me and does not accept my words; that very word which I spoke will condemn him at the last day.
I'm sure you feel that way. Your un-serious, and un-Christlike attitude was the major component that woke me up.
Perhaps, if you accept that fact that somehow, maybe, the total story of 'E' is not as it seems, you can experience the Joy of your Salvation again.
Just ignore the facts and pretend, and everything will be OK. Sorry Elsie, I can't unlearn what I know, as I'm sure you well understsand.
Having fun?