You pretty much implied that you were a non-vote until a "Conservative" was offered on the ballot.
And your interpretation is pretty much correct, too.
In the primaries, I will support any conservative over McCain or Giuliani.
I do not expect either to survive the primaries if there is a conservative present.
I will vote for some other Republican by write-in vote if McCain wins the primaries. I have a personal grudge against him, and I will not relent. He is a liar.