I always start by going to God Himself, Jesus, to learn about Him. Then when I read something else, I have the real thing for a reference from which to judge. You have no reference, so anything goes and it has no counterpart in reality.
That's why I keep sending you to the scriptures. God's word. You might try reading it once . You may learn something.
But then again maybe you wouldn't. There is none so blind as he which refuses to see.