"5 years since I quit"
Do you ever have nightmares that you've started again?
"Do you ever have nightmares that you've started again?"
It certainly comes up in my dreams a LOT. What is wild is in the first few years, I would actually almost start to take a drag and then I would wake up with sweats as bad as a pursuit nightmare.
But in the last few years, I turn smoking down, even in my dreams (but the temptation in my dreams is as strong as in real life after a few beers). When you turn it down in your dreams, you know your subconscious is on board.
But I understand addiction very deeply. If I didn't care if I lived, then I would probably go back. My love for my wife keeps me strong. I want wonderful sunset years with my wife. I owe her that and it is important I be there or the picture is flawed.