Baruch habba b'shem Adonai!
I hate the holiday season because all of the holier than thou/ I know better than anyone else/ my religion is better than yours/ people are on full display.
Sadly, I have found that people do the most un-God like things in the name of God. Not just the Islamocultists, but Christians and Jews as well, in many other less obvious ways.
Also, I find that religion more often than not tends to separate people rather than bring them together.
Some of things I have heard said about Jewish people by "Chruch going people" would make even the most violent skinhead blush. I have also heard some things from some of my Jewish friends that make me just want to hit someone. I am Catholic but have many many Jewish friends.
I am not an atheist by any stretch, but believe G-D could never ever intended or hopes mankind would act is does in his name.
If you believe Jesus is the messiah, you are a Christian. Why don't you just say that proudly? Just as people can convert out of Judaism, they can convert into it. It's not a racial thing, so what you were born is irrelevant. I know it's probably hard on your family. Maybe this is the root of your reluctance to say out loud that you are a Christian. Celebrating Hanukah and Passover do not make you Jewish. Your beliefs make you Jewish. Jews do not believe Jesus was the savior. You are a Christian. Stand up and be proud about it!
I'm not Jewish, I celebrate chanukah, read Torah and I know that he isn't.
Baruch Hashem!
You can't have it every way...If you believe Jesus is the Messiah...celebrate Christmas...why be wishy washy, or do you just like to drink?