I went to Catholic high school and college. I consider myself a moral person, but have left the "church" for many reasons.
I have found that religions are no different that political parties, only with far more deadly and harmful consequences.
Just look at history. Mankind, in the name of religion and God, has killed and maimed so many people.
All I can say is I am sorry for your experiances. I have never felt that way - I see more good than bad.
C'mon-- Mankind in the name of other men's wives, other men's money, other men's property, other men's politics, other men's languages, etc, has gone to war with very little provocation.
Stop being so moralistic and biased against religion because your parents forced you to go to Sunday school. It's a lot more fun to stop complaining about "bad Christians" and start allowing Christ to work miracles in your life....
This is a canard that is simply false. The French Revolutionaries in a few year killed more Catholics, for being Catholic, than the Spanish Inquisition sentenced to death in three hundred years. The French Revolutionary and Napoleonic wars in a little more than 20 years caused the death of far more people than the wars of religion did in a hundred. A thousand years of warfare between Christians and Muslims resulted in far fewer deaths than the ideological war of 1939-1945.