There are none so blind as those who will not see. You are willfully blind to that which you claim to seek, and yet you persist in ascribing that blindness to someone else's inability to turn on the lights. The lights are on, Chester - you just refuse to open your eyes.
I was hoping for a more substantive response, perhaps an answer to my question: How much do I have to "understand" death to know I do not like it?
It is clear to me you see the light according to your assumptions and you believe the propositions that come at your reason and senses according to your own judgments. I am happy to let you live and die with that light. But you go against common sense in attributing your existence and the existence of the universe to something other than intelligent design. Regardless, in these regards you stand no more firmly on scientific ground than do I.
I'm trying to figure out where it is I confessed that I claimed to be seeking something. It's all been laid on my lap to be observed and noted to some degree, but in no way does it suggest, and in no way am I seeking, the notion that I am here as a result of a 4.5 billion year concatenation of chemical reactions. Is there some way you can bring science to bear on this matter? No. Please stop pretending you can.