I believe they exist only in your fevered imagination.
And I am just giving you the drama that you seem to crave. Perhaps we should explore your cravings for being the center of attention a little deeper. Childhood issues perhaps?
What is all this supposed to accomplish? You've gotten your answer about why I did what I did, which is, honestly, more than you're entitled to have, and yet you're not satisfied with it. Too bad. Get over it. Nobody cares. Quit trying to score brownie points after the fact.