You have chosen to reject God. Blaming others for it (as you do), and not your own decision is what makes you weak.
When I was a kid, I had one substitute Sunday School teacher who said that the Bible taught that Negroes were meant to be slaves to white people. What would it say about me if I rejected all the truths in God's word, and ran away from Christianity because of this ignorant, and very UN-Christ-like Christian in my past? Not much.
But, that's exactly what you have done. And you are still blaming others for your own choice. You are playing the victim, when you have made the choice yourself to ignore God's call.
I'm not any form of 'Super Christian' but I do want others to experience the love of Christ, and I share it with them.
I am powerless and weak, but God is omnipotent. It is He whom I would like you to find......and the peace that passes all human understanding.
I will leave you with the words of Jesus.....
I am the Resurrection and the Life. He that believes in Me will live, even though he dies; , yet shall he live. And whoever lives and believes in Me, will never die. Do you believe this? .....John 11: 25
> You have chosen to reject God.
If it helps you sleep better to believe that, go for it. In all honesty, your simplistic views are entertaining.
> You are playing the victim
Only if you believe that those who think for themselves are "victims." I happen not to agree.
> I'm not any form of 'Super Christian' but I do want others to experience the love of Christ, and I share it with them.
And you insult and berate and rebuke those who do not believe as you do. Your choice.
> What would it say about me if I rejected all the truths in God's word, and ran away from Christianity because of this ignorant, and very UN-Christ-like Christian in my past?
Well, if you were *surrounded* by such nonsense for years, coming from a multitude of sources... it would say you've grown up.
Hearing Creationist claptrap from a few random nutjobs would not be enough to de-Christianize too many people. But noting the relatively vast size of the movement leads a rational person to understand that a good chunk of the religion is based on hogwash. If a religion claims to be Inerrant, and yet is massively and obviously flawed on some pretty basic facts, then seeing it as a lie becomes not just easy, but inevitable.
For the record: I have not "rejected God." I have rejected *you*, however. And since you see yourself as God's representative, you see rejection of you and your beliefs as rejection of God.
You would not be the first person to hold yourself up as God's equal in these matters, and you won't be the last.