I went thru the same thing, SheLion. Lost my hubby 9 years ago at the age of 54. He died of cancer caused from Agent Orange. Watching Kerry makes me sick. We know who the real war heroes are, and he isn't one.
I am SO sorry for your loss, Lovergirl! It's devastating. But my hubby came out of Nam and after dating for 6 months, we married.
I don't know if you went through the same thing as me, but for YEARS after that, he had "jiggy legs," and would talk in his sleep about "taking the hill." "Got to take the hill." He was a heavy equipment operator in the Army and worked on Holesters. Once in Viet Nam, he even FIRED the Holesters. You know.......the huge guns with the long barrels that sat on the ground?
He always relieved the war in his dreams.
I even ask him about it. I thought if he talked it out, it would help him. Sometimes, I couldn't get him to stop. He just talked and talked and talked. But I think it was good therapy for him to get it out of his system. Although I am sure, to the day he died, it was always there in his mind, like a black demon.
He would have an absolute fit today if he saw how the media was putting Kerry on a pedestal. I can just hear him now. hehhe! (He passed away a year ago this past January).
(Oh yes, after we married, he went into Civil Service as a Heavy Equipment Operator at Ft Dix, but he wasn't happy. He wanted to go back into the military. I talked him into joining the Air Force because I just knew that if he went back into the Army, he would be right back over to Nam. He wasn't crazy about being in the Air Force, but having a wife, he accepted it. He served 26 years and the last 7 years of his service, he was a 1st Sgt. He loved his troops and he loved serving his Country. My hubby was ALL MILITARY! They must be born with it. :)