Or a rage driven soul, trying to outdo the other rage driven kids. What you quote strongly suggests that he wanted his angry statement to far outdo the younger kids in Paducah. Was he a natural sociopath--there are such--or reacting with fury to a sense that something (something that he couldn't even define) was missing from his life. I would lean towards the latter, because most sociopaths do not commit suicide, but demonstrate their pathology over much longer time frames. The misery they cause others may be a game, but not one that requires immediate self-destruction, where there is not much time for personal enjoyment.
William Flax
WISE, ASTUTE comments, imho.
Thanks.
You added to my understanding.