Posted on 04/18/2004 2:10:14 PM PDT by Wally_Kalbacken
When Patrick Smith started using methamphetamine, he quickly found that sex and the potent drug — which gay men call Tina or Crystal — became hopelessly connected.
Whenever he had sex, he wanted meth. Whenever he was high on meth, he wanted sex.
A methamphetamine user since he was 16, Smith spent years having anonymous, unprotected sex while high. He took the drug whenever he could. He hooked up with male partners — he has no idea how many — at large dance parties and at all-night sex clubs.
Smith ran out of money and prostituted himself. He was hospitalized about six times after overdosing on combinations of drugs. Meth was always in the mix.
One morning about two years ago, Smith woke up in his living room after a meth binge. His head was gashed and bleeding. Shattered glass lay everywhere.
"My head had crashed through a glass table, and I didn't remember any of it," said Smith, 24.
He checked into a yearlong drug rehab program. After medical tests, counselors told him he had contracted HIV, the virus that causes AIDS. He believes he contracted the disease while having sex with strangers while on meth.
According to a new study of gay men in San Francisco by the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, men who used meth were twice as likely to have unprotected sex as those who did not. Another study, by the San Francisco Department of Public Health, found that men who used meth were more than three times as likely to be HIV-positive.
Gay health organizations in San Francisco and New York have launched public awareness campaigns warning about meth use and HIV transmission through risky sexual behavior.
Smith is one of a growing number of young gay men in Atlanta who believe they contracted HIV after meth abuse and risky sex. But in metro Atlanta, which has the largest concentration of gays in the Deep South, AIDS groups have not yet started meth-specific education campaigns. The problem, however, has become a crisis, say some therapists and medical experts who treat gay men.
"They are taking outrageous risks," said John Ballew, an Atlanta therapist who says two-thirds of his clients are gay men. "It has really become associated with the fast-lane night life among certain gay men. My professional take on it is, the problem is just as bad as [in] New York or San Francisco or Los Angeles."
Meth use among gay men in Atlanta is "really, really insidious," said Michael Dubin, a counselor whose clients are all gay men. "From what I am hearing from friends and from clients, it is a lot more extensive than any of us would like to think, especially in the club scene. And it leads to people throwing caution to the wind — when they know better."
Dr. Sanjay Sharma, a psychiatrist at Grady Health System's infectious disease program, said the drug's use among gay men has become a serious health concern. "A lot of these substances, crystal meth in particular, are associated with euphoria and hypersexuality," he said. "And along with that, increased sexual risk-taking behaviors, and then an overall impaired judgment. That's not a good combination of effects."
Many gay men have never tried methamphetamine. Some have only experimented briefly with the drug. But a minority of gay men habitually abuse the drug during sexual encounters with multiple partners. For these men, meth use has become part of sex.
Meth, a psychostimulant that excites pleasure centers in the brain, makes users feel euphoric for hours. The drug impairs judgment, lowers inhibitions, keeps people awake for days, and can increase sexual arousal.
"They go from feeling like wallflowers to feeling like supermen," Ballew said. "Safer sex messages are just forgotten."
Many men have told Ballew the drug is rampant in their social circle. "This drug has become almost normalized in the community," he said. "It's hard to see how it could become more of a problem."
Decades of drug abuse
Methamphetamine has been abused in the United States for decades, especially on the West Coast. The drug can be snorted, injected, swallowed and smoked, and some gay men insert it anally.
The meth crisis among gay men is occurring in tandem with a dramatic surge in meth use by heterosexuals, especially in rural areas across Georgia and the nation. The potent, cheap drug is the leading illegally manufactured drug in the nation, according to the U.S. Drug Enforcement Administration.
Meth abuse among urban, rural and suburban heterosexuals has increased crime and caused enormous health and social problems. But the drug use among heterosexuals has not been as associated with risky sexual behavior as it is among young gay men living in cities like Atlanta.
Smith said he had sworn off meth and other illegal drugs since he fell through the table. But he said the allure of the drug was powerful.
"It gives people a way to have sex for hours and hours and hours," said Smith, who grew up in Marietta and now lives in Decatur. "It's the greatest euphoria you can ever feel."
'Party and play'
Meth is so linked with this subculture of gay men engaging in anonymous sex with strangers that men advertise either that they have the drug or want it during sex in personal ads and on the Internet. Their notices carry the phrase "PnP" for "party and play," a euphemism for crystal methamphetamine and sex.
"People will have what they call Tina sex parties," said Danny Sprouse, coordinator of HIV prevention and mental health services for gay and bisexual men at Positive Impact Inc., an Atlanta nonprofit that counsels people with HIV. "They may set up some rules at the beginning to say, 'You can only have safe sex.' So they'll have a lot of condoms available."
Or they may have Tina parties where condoms aren't even allowed, Sprouse said, "where they say, 'We're only going to have unsafe sex.' "
Even at condoms-only Tina parties, men don't always use protection as the drug kicks in and the night wears on, he said.
John, a 36-year-old gay man who lives in Midtown, said he wished he had never touched the stuff.
"On Tina, you make bad judgments about safe sex, about your life, about just about everything," he said.
John asked that his last name not be published. He has known since 1997 he is HIV-positive. He used meth for more than 18 months until he quit, with great difficulty, this Jan. 1, he said.
While on methamphetamine, he frequented all-night Atlanta sex clubs and often had anonymous, unprotected sex with men who also were high on the drug, he said.
"I think there's a possibility that I may have infected someone. I couldn't tell you who," John said. "And I have the feeling that the people that I did have unprotected sex with had already had unprotected sex with other people, so there's no way for them to know if it would have been me or someone else."
Clubs encourage safety
All-male clubs in Atlanta, such as the bathhouse Flex, generally have policies banning drugs on the premises, distribute free condoms, and encourage their patrons to use protection.
At Flex, if a customer is discovered using or selling drugs, "we revoke their membership and immediately dismiss them from the property," said Charles Fleck, who lives in Miami and owns a chain of male bathhouses including Flex.
Gay men are much more likely to associate meth with sex, though prolonged abuse of the drug has been known to affect a man's ability to maintain an erection, according to Michael Siever, founder and director of the San Francisco-based Stonewall Project, which counsels gay and bisexual men about the risks of abusing methamphetamine.
Immune system hurt
Researchers have found that meth abuse also wears on the immune system, making it more dangerous for men with HIV.
Some researchers have said the drug also adversely interacts with HIV medications.
Meth use and attendant HIV transmission has become such a concern in New York City that Gay Men's Health Crisis, one of the nation's largest gay AIDS/HIV groups, has launched a major education campaign there. The organization is putting up billboards, sending out mailings, sponsoring workshops and dispatching counselors into the community to talk about meth abuse and HIV.
"We want to cut the chain link between using crystal, impaired judgment, risky sex and HIV transmission," said Eric Altman, a GMHC associate director.
While no such methamphetamine education program is under way in Atlanta, AID Atlanta has launched a program that includes passing out condoms at gay clubs.
"I'm not telling them what to do as far as how many sex partners they have," said Michael Clifford, an HIV prevention specialist with AID Atlanta who visits the clubs. "What I am telling them — or asking them to consider and think about — is the way that they practice their sex, to protect themselves."
'Just one weekend'
Sprouse said several of his clients at Positive Impact believed they contracted HIV by having unsafe sex while they were high on meth.
One client was diagnosed with the virus after only one weekend of meth use and sex, he said. The man, whom Sprouse described as shy, churchgoing and in his mid-20s, told him he had had "very limited" sexual experience and had practiced only safe sex before that weekend.
"Some friends of his introduced him to Tina on a Thursday evening," Sprouse said. "He started using Tina that night and stopped on Monday morning. . . . He lost count over the weekend when he hit having sex with 12 men."
About a month later, the man "developed a flulike syndrome, went and got tested, and was HIV-positive," Sprouse said. "He came in clearly overwhelmed. In his mind he was thinking this was just one weekend. One weekend, and it has impacted him for the rest of his life."
By the end of last year, John, the HIV-positive man in Midtown, was using meth every day, a habit that cost him about $250 a week, and he had quit his job.
He also had stopped taking his HIV medications.
"I was like, 'I'm just going to let it take me down. I'm just going to keep doing it until it kills me.' "
He also was imagining voices. "They would repeat everything I thought. They would make fun of me."
One night at home, enraged at the voices in his head, John took a black marker and wrote — over and over — on a white leather chair, "They stole your mind."
He keeps the chair in his bedroom as a personal warning: Stay away from Tina.
Staff writer David Wahlberg contributed to this article.
That's gonna leave a mark, Mrs Mark!
Just thank Torie for the interest in your comments, and move on. :-)
BTW - did you actually read the article, or just Mrs Mark's comment?
This same self-destructive group has spent a fortune in money, time and effort trying to destroy the basics of Western culture: religion and the family unit. They find it neither selfish OR nasty to ruin young lives with their seductions; they care not that they are infecting others and affecting whole families.
So, I ask you, as the defender of those projecting their sins upon us: What is wrong with deviates facing the consequences of their own behaviour?
Actually, there were several guys.
The article was a biased pity party for "the afflicted". I didn't like the tone of the article, nor the assumption of the writers that we taxpayers should just keep paying the tab for this insanity, as another poster pointed out.
I'll bet these "journalists" have got articles about tobacco use out wherein they beat smokers over the head for their "bad choices" and gleefully cheerlead confiscatory tobacco taxation.
I'm actually going to post that before I check, too.
It comes in when people ignore the genuine questions raised by this article (how did things go so hideously awry with a 16 year old and why, if true, is methamphetamine use so disproportionally prevalent amongst gays & what can be done to reverse the situation) so that they may instead express their reflexive, judgmental, and slightly backwards moralism.
Taking meth and sleeping with countless partners in one evening, with or without condoms is sick and dangerous. They must have a death wish. It is also utterly sad and depressing.
There are so many healthier pursuits they could be following, and instead they are ruining themselves.
People like the young men in the article need our prayers, BIGTIME.
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