[MamaB]

Hey,
I just got home from shopping with our 15 year old granddaughter. She really misses her aunt. We are going to try to go to MS this weekend to see my 99 year old mom and other relatives. I want to tell everyone something. Every time Janice and I went to MS, I would make sure I would get some pictures of her with my mom and other relatives if they were there. I always thought it was because of my mom's age and that the pictures might be the last ones of her. Well, it turns out that it was Janice who would not be around the next time we went down. Our other daughter and I have been having some wierd dreams and feeling the presence of Jan. Sat. was the worst day I have had since she died. I started crying so much that I started vomiting. I felt the same way the next 2 days. I was better yesterday and today. Have no idea what is going on. We are thinking about planting trees at our church, at the new high school where both daughters went and maybe at the nursing home where my mom is. I have several hundred dollars that Jan had in her purse and I have been trying to decide what to do with it. Our daughter and I thought about planting some fruit trees at our house. Jan always loved the plums, peaches and pears she got when we went to MS years ago so maybe we will do that.
Thanks everyone for your prayers. I do not know how I would have survived these past 2 months without them. This has been so hard on our family. I can not wait til we get to MS when I can ask my mom if she has had any thoughts or dreams about Jan.
Thanks again everyone!!
Hugs to all,
Mamab

[prairiebreeze]

God bless you MamaB

Prairie

[texasflower]

You are still in my prayers. I think the fruit trees are a good idea.

It would be a tribute that grows taller and stronger every year.

Take care.

Tammy

[SuziQ]

Go for the fruit trees MamaB. That way, every year, you'll get a lovely 'new life' reminder of Jan.

[GretchenEE]

More prayers for you, MamaB.

I'm so glad you come on the dose in this time of need and jostle me to keep praying, because I confess, I need the jostling.

Perhaps the "worst day" since Jan's passing indicates a releasing of grief at a far deeper level than you were able to feel before. I don't like the sounds of how hard this is for you ... may God shed His grace on you and your family.