The Mayor, I love all your posts and get so much out of them.
(((group hug))) I'm sorry I'm not around more. I'm always busy with the kids. Homeschooling is quite consuming. I log on to read the news real quick but never have time to play any more. :(
We saw "The Passion" last night and I've been so happy today. I cried during the viewing and was exhausted later on, yet I felt strangely happy and came out of the movie smiling a little, feeling guilty about doing so. I thought surely there is something wrong with me, seeing Jesus slaughtered and coming out smiling. I hope no one saw. I was praying to God last night asking Him to soften my heart, because my heart must be rock hard for not weeping. I thought I should have been more upset than I was.
Today I've just been so happy and excited. I've been singing, "He could have called 10,000 angels" and "Victory in Jesus" all day. I can't stop thinking about the blood and how it was for me, my wretched self. I soooooo do not deserve the mercy and love God gives me. Of all the people in the world, I deserve hell the most. I'm just so happy! I can't stop feeling happy. I'm saved. What a relief! What a blessing! I'm going to heaven. I can't wait to see Jesus and Peter and my grandma again.
I'm so humbled today. It probably wont last long since pride is my worst problem, but I pray I don't lose this feeling. (Yikes! Dangerous prayer. It's gonna hurt). I just can't get over Him so humbly going through all that for me and submitting the way He did. There aren't any words to describe my joy.
Blessed assurance....praise God!