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BLESS YOU AND YOURS MANY TONS FOR YOUR SUSTAINING WORDS!!!

I don't THINK I feel that resentful if any at all. Mystified in some respects. Though I realize God is God and always will be God and that I don't HAVE to understand things.

A dear sister about 35 years ago told me The Father wanted me to "rejoice not that I made you so differently [from others] but rejoice IN MY CAPACITY to HOLD YOU IN A HARD PLACE."

I felt it was an awesome, kind of ominous prophetic word at the time. Given the abundant fulfillment of it over the years and again now . . . it has turned out to be even more so. I'm still struggling to get to that place of rejoicing in His capacity to do that though I have at times.

And, I know that we must "walk by faith" even when it's hard and we can't seem to shake loose much of a clue about what's going on.

And, I know that when God operates on me, within me, He seems to have to do it without any or at least without much of my conscious awareness so I don't muck up the surgery.

Nevertheless, IT IS NO FUN!!!! Sigh.

The encouragements such as yours are really desperately longed for water in a long 'Death Valley' trek.

THANKS TRAINLOADS,