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Interesting article Darksheare ..

Personally I don't trust doctors .. especially after witnessing some of the stuff my mom went through after my dad died.

Dad suffered 5 years with cancer and was in and out of the hospital alot .. Mom had to take care of him and 6 kids .. two years before dad died she was pregnant with my youngest sister .. that is a whole different story and what the doctors told her at the time that could happen to my sister .. she only gain like 15 pounds during that time.

All during this time, she would have her mood swings, but they were nothing like after dad died and she went into a depression .. the doctors said she was a manic depressive and put her on meds .. I'm not sure what meds they gave her at the time, I was only 8 yrs old at the time and the adults didn't think I needed to know what was going on .. but IMO whatever they were, they did NOT help and let's just say it was not a fun time around my house during that time. The slightest things would set mom off and she would just beat the day lights out of me. I have older siblings, but that is a long story and they weren't much help

Well .. another long story, but they ended up puting mom in the hospital and gave her electric shock treatments to snap her out of the manic Depression. Not sure if that is what worked or it was the fear of going thru that again, but things around the house did get better and after some time, mom stopped taking those meds.

Ouch.
I know what's wrong with me.
I think it's inherited from my grandmother.
While I don't get that bad, I fear that it will get worse as time goes on, as it did for my grandmother.
I DO have mood swings that are 'impressive' to say the least.
It's like having two people in your head, one always in frenetic frantic activity.
The other is sullen, angry, and depressed all the time.
Oh, and as an added bonus, they're both you.

Gets confusing at times since you're not even sure who you yourself will be dealing with at any given moment.
Certain activities do help, like art.
Being in the military did help in exorcising the demons.
I was actually calmer and more focused then.
Had a direction then. *Wry smile*

Bipolar disorder (Manic depression) isn't something to play with.
I know that.
Meds also don't seem to help much.
So I honestly DO try to avoid people for obvious reasons.
Better off that way as well.

Not sure about this one, but those with high IQ's know there is something wrong in their heads, and actively hide it.
Being smart has a downside to it then.
It makes it difficult to diagnose and work on what's wrong.

Hopefully, things won't get as bad as I fear.
That's what I'm hoping for, at the same time as preparing for the worst.
*Head scratch*
On a silly note: I get to be my own guinea pig!