Heartfelt bump bro.....40K per year in total for CS and add ons like summer camp, medical, dental, extras and plane tickets....all to a woman who remarried a much older fellow who makes several million per year and she has about a 10K/month expense account, servants, weekend trips to Paris for "shopping" ...you name it. My pittance to her which is punitive for me is simply extra spending money for her. They got married the day our divorce was final. I went thru the immediate restraining order crap and all sorts of other pleasantries.
Now 8 years later, she acts like the children are a bother but of course would never give them up because that would mean capitulating to me.
My life now with wife #2 is a wonder and very nice and easy and we have a 2 year old Tasmanian Devil and another in the oven. I'll be 50 when the next one enters grade school. Scary in a way. I'm very blessed now but God forbid should something happen to my current wife, I doubt seriously I would ever remarry. I have now almost 4 children and can't afford anymore hence, marriage beyond this current very satisfying one is holds little allure for me. Women will always hold an allure for me but marriage...no.
Thanks for your post. I'm 48 now and remarried after 10 years of being single. It has worked out very well and my kids are 25 and 23 respectively. No more kids for me though. My wife is fine with that. I've recovered financially and life is better. As you have said, if something happened to this wife I would also probably live out the rest of life alone. Good luck to you my friend. Keep in touch from time to time.