Speaking out of kindness to a fellow FReeper, maybe you should see a counselor who will help you overcome your obsessions and delusions. No doubt at some point your spouse left you. See a counselor before more of your world collapses.
Cheers!
4 posted on 07/20/2025 2:35:07 PM PDT by Governor Dinwiddie
( O give thanks unto the Lord, for He is gracious, and his mercy endures forever. — Psalm 106)