Too uncomfortable in general society for that.
As a practicing veterinarian (primarily equine/exotics) for over 45 years, i truly understand your anguish and sorrow. When all is said and done, and it becomes “time” , i know that you know not to be selfish until the suffering is worse. Good dogs are hard to come by, but I believe that they will always find you. The dogs that have passed dearly loved you, but it’s not against their memories when you find your next canine partner. Good dogs love their parents so much that they tell the other dog spirits that you are deserving of their love, too. That hole in your heart can be filled not by replacements, but by the next dog that needs your rescue and attention. Have your heart open, and a good dog that needs you will be there.
I know that good people get found by good dogs. Both sides get the love they need.
Prayers for you.