We’re you in the hospital for covid?
Prayers up for you.
Hospitalized 3 times:
February 2020 breathing issues
March 2020 breathing issues
June 2022 with COVID stomach.
Never vented.
Cardiogram in January 2023 showed heart was in great shape; however, my neurological system is a problem. I started collapsing with symptoms of a heart attack in December 2022. Diagnosed with postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome.
The problem is now that when I have a POTS episode, my autonomic functions shut down. I hit the ground in a dead drop, my face goes slack, I stop blinking and breathing automatically, I’m disconnected from my body and am aware that I’m suffocating but am unable signal for help. So far, I’ve only been alone once when it happened. Thankfully, my family is usually with me and makes sure I keep breathing, albeit in staggered spurts with frighteningly long pauses in between.
For a day or two afterwards, I’m a zombie. I’m losing a little more of my memory and mental edge every time one happens.
I have had a stunning preview of how I’m going to die. It isn’t pretty, but I have accepted it. Now my focus is living long enough to see my youngest son graduate high school and my middle child graduate college. I’ve already planned for my departure.
I have to live into 2024, then I can die.
Everyone who created this monster should burn at the stake.