It has been 10 years for me. I bought a cheap camp, and spent a lot of time figuring out how to improve it, and decorate it. You need something else to think about. (And you are more emotionally fragile,;than you think”.
I follow a guy named “Camping with Steve” on YouTube. He does stealth camping and other adventures.
His wife died suddenly and without a known cause about four months ago.
After a couple months he’s getting back in the saddle along with a good friend known only as “Crazy Neighbor.”
As viewers, we are able to watch him through the lens of his camera as he deals with obvious grief and also how to make normal.
Sounds sorta like you did in building a camp.