I'm sorry you lost your family members to their addictions. Everyone in my family smoked. I never did. Both parents and my second oldest sister died of lung cancer. They knew the consequences of their smoking habit, but I'm not naive enough to think that even though I never smoked, that I won't die of cancer. My brother stopped smoking after his first heart attack at the age of 48, but he thought he knew better than the doctors, and stopped taking his prescribed diuretic medication (he didn't like having to pee on the job so often), and he died of a massive heart attack at home in front of his wife and kids at the age of 51. My oldest sister was an alcoholic and smoked as well. About the only positive thing that came out of her being institutionalized most of her adult life was that she was eventually forced to stop smoking. She lived to be 74. I'm 75 and living on borrowed time. I have my own health issues that none of them ever had. My only goal in life now, is not to outlive my two sons.
“Everyone in my family smoked. I never did.”
If you were around them then you did. And you will be in my prayers for your continued health and healing.
Also, I like your FR handle! That’s a lot of interesting history right there!