For a long time Mars was assumed to be dead inside, like me.
Dude, don’t even think that. Look for reasons to live. They are everywhere.
God can bring you life.
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1 You were made alive when you were dead in transgressions and sins, 2 in which you once walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who now works in the children of disobedience; 3 among whom we also all once lived in the lust of our flesh, doing the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, even as the rest. 4 But God, being rich in mercy, for his great love with which he loved us, 5 even when we were dead through our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved),
Dead inside: that is incredibly sad. I went through a rough patch 2 decades ago when I was caring first for my mother dying of congestive heart failure, and then my husband dying of Alzheimer’s. They didn’t want to die in a hospital, so my last gift to them was to care for them at home at the end. In between my father died, leaving 6 low income units badly in need of improvement before selling. I did a lot of work on these units with an agreement with my 2 brothers. Then they sold everything and did not pay me my share of the estate or for the work they had agreed to pay me. I felt pretty low for about a year, then began to get involved in public issue and met some good people. I am now 83 and am probably as happy as I have ever been. Please feel free to private mail me if you like. For 10 years I counseled people with severe emotional issues, mostly with success.