That's exactly why I don't fall in lockstep with the religious experts either. For some odd reason, there's a popular belief out there that it's okay if religious experts operate that way. Nobody is supposed to question settled doctrines, or else.
Amen brother or sister. those doctrinal “experts” can be the worst and most misleading because the Bible is simultaneously paradoxical: so hard and so simple. the infinite mind expressed finitely is tough for us who “see darkly” to grasp.
i’ve gone through, studied in depth and rejected (or chosen among the incompatible ones) most of the well known ones myself.
for me what’s left standing is the doctrine of Freewill (which became easy. now i see it everywhere in the Bible.) and the Gold standard doctrine: the Holy Trinity (which was the hardest one for me initially).
may God bless!