I was thinking of you. I hope things go well, you’re in my thoughts and prayers as well as Hrati. I hope I got his name right, I’m going on memory here. I’m sure Rascal, who I lost almost a month ago is giving his good thoughts as he sits at the Rainbow Bridge. To recap a little, I lost Mom in 2013 and had two cats, Spunky and Rascal. Spunky was born in 1999 and I lost her in 2016. She outlived her three kittens. Then Rascal of course. I often saw my cat(s) as an anchor myself, meaning that it was a great help in feeling a bit of worth in myself as well as thinking of not doing anything stupid or “hold my beer and watch this stuff.” Yeah, if I injure myself or worse, there is no one to care for my kitties. I’d like to try to give a little but I went deep inter debt myself with the combination of life happens, Rascal and now my car running on three out of four cylinders and sounds and eats gas like a Sherman Tank. I start a new fulltime work at home job in two weeks so I hope to get on track, fix the car and find two kitties that need my love. I know Rascal and my other cats and pets would want me to do that but in the meaning, it is very hard for me too. I even lay in bed with a stuffed cat as I watch TV, I know I’m 55 but it helps the void a little. Still at least I have my friends to talk to, they told me to call anytime if I’m really down or even God Forbid, get close to suicide. In the latter, I think I had a good Mom to teach me that is never the answer but I’m glad to have a resource for just in case.
I slept with a stuffed toy Doberman for the two months it took for Hrafi to be old enough to come here, after Bubby died.
I get it and I don’t care who thinks that’s crazy or weird.
Same boat as you, including massive car troubles.
Another worry, will the car even make it that far but I have to try.
God bless you and I pray that things turn better for you.
Count me among those who will talk to you when you feel like stepping off the ledge.
Honestly, if you look around, you’ll probably see me standing out there, too.