Makes sense. Most of us think he’s a major jerk but that does not mean he doesn’t have emotions and can’t feel pain.
I know someone who shot somebody in self defense and not a day goes by that he does not think of those ten seconds.
If Baldwin has Narcissistic Personality Disorder, then he is not capable of the feelings you describe. Its all about him, his pain, his devastation, his grief, and he will constantly work overtime 24/7 to make himself the victim. And judging from what im seeing in the media, its exactly whats happening even to the point of Baldwin getting annoyed when his wife looked to upstage him in the interview. No one upstages a Narcissist, ever.