American police refuse to absorb the risk of death that comes with their job. Instead they force a part of the general public, including those who have nothing to do with anything at all, into an early grave to keep the police safe.
American police perjure under oath. Such is the reward of a habit of cowardice.
The American concept of qualified immunity permit the police to engage with impunity in murder, torture and rape. This carte blache is a threat to any functioning civil society.
Can you offer any defense, or are you simply unwilling to bear the burden, "to risk life and limb", that you swore an oath to perform?
Seek help, you have issues that should be diagnosed and treated.