Not doin' dis.
Posted on 03/24/2020 9:36:36 AM PDT by Rebelbase
A sobering story.
Oddly enough, ArGee, I'm not angry at or with God. I'm angry at the person I lost, for leaving me as a shell of who I was. That probably isn't the best way to explain it but:
Whatever I've lost, all those things that made me such a force to be reckoned with, will be mine once again in the Eternities.
I truly believe that I was given this disability for the Lord's Purpose, whatever that is. Knowing that, it's up to me to try and live within the parameters of the disability in such a way that I don't bring shame upon me or my God. Being human, it's hard to function sometimes because I remember who I was and what I was capable of, and I realize that those days are gone.
For over a year, maybe two or more when I first came on FR, no one knew I was ill. Now it seems, I can't shut up about it, and I apologize. I think it's a misguided way to try and help people understand the disease and all its ramifications, and that seems to have failed.
So once again, I apologize. I need to just shut up about it and quit trying to make everything about me.
You have more courage than I could ever muster. I could only teach my Favorite Son to drive and that was a test of my SuperMom skills, and then there’s you...This is Number What? I forget, though I know you’ve told me.
I know many believe that God's sovereignty requires that He intends everything that happens. I don't. I think sin is our fault, which caused creation to be less than the perfect thing He created it to be. We were given Dominion and we blew it.
You making the absolute most of what you have to deal with is spot-on, however. Whether He gives the trial, we can agree He gives the grace to deal with it.
Rant on if it helps you. We are FRiends here.
Is that the same as, "My side. My Side! MY SIDE!!!!!!"?
I don't believe that. I believe that we are given choices in our lives and that for the most part, our choices determine our outcomes. I doubt that your friend chose his stroke, but only chose his life-style. Being angry at God serves him no purpose.
I do believe we are given trials to strengthen us spiritually, and mine is CFIDS. Or arthritis, or back injury (caused by a fall when I was eight months old and walking places I shouldn't have been) or nerve damage from car accidents when I was a passenger. But the point is, without the bitter, we don't know the sweet. Trials make us appreciate the blessings. And I for one, and very thankful for all of it!
I keep saying I'll quit ranting, but obviously, I don't. I have SUCH a fine audience! <3 ;o]
I probably came on a little strong there, ArGee, but I didn’t mean to. I meant that I didn’t believe “God’s sovereignty requires that He intends everything that happens.” We’re human. We sin. But if we’re given challenges in this life, we can either approach them with the idea of making the best of them or we can be angry at God for not saving us.
And I also didn’t thank you for being such an awesome FRiend and amazing friend! Thanks for being both! And thanks for feeling as if you can tell me whatever you feel like saying. It means a lot! :o])
Indeed, what are FRiends for if not to listen to your rants?
And you, my dearest of friends, seem to get the brunt of them. There are not enough words in the known universe to express my gratitude.
Not doin' dis.
You’re welcome. It’s what I’d like someone to do for me if I were in a ranting mood, and you’ve done your share.
Kitteh is right for not doin’ dis. Me too. But ‘cept I did.
Good morning.
I slept well, again, but feel like I didn’t. Common. Still, today, in a little over an hour, I’ll get back to the bedroom and denude some hangers and think the entire closet will be a lot thinner when I’m done.
Tomorrow is the ultrasound on my right knee, and I’ll have to drive into St George for it. But the appointment is at 0800, so I’ll be in and back before it gets too warm. I don’t think I mentioned that I have an appointment the last Monday of the month for my right eye. Finally. YAY! I’ll be able to see to put on make-up!
The bill for the knee x-ray finally came in. This health insurance company is the pits. It’s the same one I had in Vegas, but there, I had no co-pays except for prescriptions. Here, it’s co-pays for every service. Unngh.
Good morning. I considered not doin’ dis, but I believe in routines, so here I am. The cats were happy to go out. It’s cool this morning, 55-60, but expected to be over 80 this afternoon.
Unless a disaster ensues in the interim, some of us will be going out this afternoon to a get-together of my friend Lisa’s co-op group to play Monopoly. Or something: when I texted her saying we’d likely be there, she said we should bring “Exploding Kittens.”
Funny, but I never see the ranting as going two ways. It always seems to be from me to you, and that’s a bit lop-sided. :o])
*tagline*
I’m sure it’s some sort of perception fallacy, because I consider the ranting to be bilateral.
One thing that’s not bilateral is the generation of dishes by certain overnight people (like, all of them) as opposed to the washing-up of dishes by certain morning people (me).
*grumble*
Yes, routines.
I checked the calendar on my way to bed last night and realized I should have started the tea yesterday. So I’m a day late, but here I go again.
The bedroom is waiting, but I had to check emails and FB and answer a post from a niece (the one who sent the books that I’ll never get,) because she tried to hijack a post. She does that. It irritates the dickens out of me, but I told her this morning that I will love her to the day I die, and support her no matter what she does. As I will do all of my family members. But just Unngh!
Anyway, I’ll be a little later than I planned getting into the removal of things. Still, it will happen.
Facebook: more evil than catalogs!
I’m getting very tired of the place. My family members are all there, and it seems the only way I can stay in contact with them. But I’m spending less and less time there.
My choice, of course, but I’ll check in at least once a day. I don’t and won’t spend hours there like I did several years ago. It just isn’t worth it. It’s what I would term “a civilian mind-bender.” A catch-phrase I heard from a pastor in CA back in the 70s, but he was referring to the TV set. Still, if the shoe fits...
Maybe the best thing for me to do is to get street addresses and phone numbers from all of them and just close my FB account altogether. I can write to them at Christmas, or send them text messages. FB has out-lived its usefulness.
I just decided to change health insurance companies. I see one is now available here that wasn’t available when I first moved here two years ago. So I’ll study it and see about signing up for it. I’d like to keep the doctors I have, though.
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