What does this or even markings on your hand have to do with clowns?
Clowns aren’t known for ink pen marks or for fingernail polish.
So ...I am not sure if you have coulrophobia, fear of clowns, or chirophobia, a fear of hands, or tatouazophobia the fear of tattoos, or transphobia, fear of transvestites... or a combination. Maybe you were punished, taunted or humiliated -or merely just laughed at by a person who really didn’t mean you ill but thought it was cute- for getting into fingerpaint or your mom’s makeup when you were very, very young and so, deep down, anything that reminds your subconscious of that causes discomfort. I think it may also be a more primal survival instinct of not wanting to draw attention from predators that may be at the root of these kinds of phobias in people, too. After all, long ago humans were the favored prey of beautifully camouflaged spotted leopards. In some parts of the world people still have to fear leopards [pardalophobia ], so it really isn’t an irrational fear.
It's nothing to do with me having imprinted memories of being taunted, teased or punished.