math is weight lifting for the mind ... and ya gotta start light and be patient ...
I never had any aptitude for it, but when I made up my mind after I got out of the USN that I was going to college as a Chemistry major, I knew I would have to work hard to make up for my lack of aptitude.
That took me where I needed to go, but I admit to not enjoying it. You simply cannot BS your way through math. You have to do it.
That is why I laugh derisively when I see people say math is “racist”. It is simply the single most OBJECTIVE thing out there I can envision.
The math either works...or it doesn’t. No middle ground.