Yikes, I was waiting for your next line to describe how things are infinitely better for you now that you're living in a van down by the river!
LOL
Like I said, the rush came from winning-that happened often enough, not always, in a race that was 400 meters or less ;-). A college teammate (distance runner) once asked the team why sprinters were usually so arrogant. What I didn’t say out loud was that we knew that everyone always watched our entire race. Don’t worry about me...I had plenty of confidence in my average abilities:-).
It’s just that I was below average in distance running and my ego took a beating. Therefore, no rush.