I wish I was. I rage against my political opponents, to the point that I would like an American Pinochet. I sin constantly, my contact with God is sporadic and feels like I'm using Him for personal gain. The good deeds I do are mostly borne of codependence. I'm a sick soul.
Pray for me, though, for realsies and no irony. I make pious noises, but ... when all is said and done, more is said than done.
We're like Peter walking out on the water because we caught sight of the Lord. But if we take our eyes off of Him for one second, one nanosecond, whoosh! Down we go!
But He didn't make you to be fish food. 
Talk to Jesus about it and give it to Him.
He can fix it and will, in love and mercy and compassion.