Please add me to your Q list. BTW...I could have written your post myself. I know exactly how you feel. I pray every night that these animals be crushed and then feel guilty for it. But my real prayer is for these children. If this stuff is really going on then their are real flesh and blood kids being used in the most awful, evil way.
I don’t feel guilty praying for destruction of the unrepentant, evidently irredeemable bits of human garbage engaging in and protecting such activities born straight from hell. David prayed starkly for punishment and destruction of his enemies. These gargoyles are worse.