Not just mentally and physically scarred, but spiritually as well. There’s nothing worse than learning that you are capable of killing your own flesh and blood. The remorse is seeking the truth, because obviously the lie isn’t holding up to reality.
The mind wanted to believe the ‘abortion is ok’ rhetoric, but the spirit knows better. Welcome to the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. Abortion is a horrible way to find out the truth. And you can’t take it back no matter how hard, or how long, or how severely you punish yourself.
Desiring to kill your off spring is abnormal. Regret, horror over what you did, grief..those are the right and normal reactions in a post abortion situation. And yes, pregnancy is often the follow-up response for those empty arms.
Some hateful folks will scoff at this saying she deserves what she gets. But the truth is, all of us hav3 fallen short of perfection and we all deserve death. Yet, merciful God is kind and continues to bless us. We all owe a debt we can’t pay.
Many of these young women end up in a cycle where they get pregnant multiple times (because their instincts kick in) and then abort every time (because they turn around and suppress their instinct). And each time they do so, they feel even worse about themselves.
I read an article about one woman who had had 8 or 9 abortions, and one live child (it was unclear why she had the one alive). She would get pregnant because she finally found the "right" man, and then she would break up with him a few weeks later and have another abortion (and feel more depressed than ever). Clearly, she could not connect with any man. She also could not bond with the one living child she had--she handed him off to her parents to raise because she was not capable of it. While the article was, I think, trying to portray abortion as a wonderful gift for this woman who obviously was in no position to have children, what it really showed was that she was extremely and profoundly damaged. I have to wonder, if without legal and easily obtainable abortion, she would have been more responsible and not driven herself into that cycle where her feeling that she was too worthless to be a mother would drive her to kill another kid, which only deepened her conviction that she was too worthless to be a mother.