It must take immense strength to create that vision and let it go so completely. I was awfully naive back then and don’t think I was strong enough for what I was trying to do. But it was so glorious to create an entire world. I still remember slowing down my writing on the last page because I knew that when I typed the last word, I’d never enter it the same way again.
What joy you must have to be able to hear music. I sang in choirs, but never really learned to read music or play an instrument. When I found myself with a 200 page music manuscript from about 1800, the only thing I could do was lay in every single note separately in the Mozart program and hold my breath until the whole piece was in and I could hit play to hear the midi. Wiped out after putting in maybe half the book.
The idea that you can HEAR music awes me.
It was really hard for me to read music at first, because I played, wrote, and arranged totally by ear. My ears and hands worked faster than my eyes, so i didn’t feel the need. Then I ran into some studio situations where I was embarrassed because I couldn’t read notation. So I taught myself, and now am able to teach others, because I learned “the Hard Way”.
I experienced similar pangs when arranging a multi-track recording. Because of digital capabilities, it is possible to keep adding things to the arrangement and not knowing when to stop! let’s see...a little horn section here, some back-up vocals there...how about a thousand strolling strings, or some ethereal angelic “ooos and ahhhhs?”
And then there’s that rack of digital and analog effects processors...yummm.
Now...after all that, I get more pleasure just playing my acoustic guitar and singing alone in front of a small audience.
Surprisingly, it seems more satisfying for some reason.