Curiousity question. Prior to the hell experience, did you experience lots of colored lights, like a visual field all firing off, pop pop pop..?
I remember once when I was croaking thinking, “what is that?”
The immediate answer was “synaptic gaps-firing”
The doctor was figuring out a weight to dosage with a big old syringe, and math impaired me knew it instantaneously. I remember how blue his eyes were,, and how intense he was. Then he stabbed it into my chest, and boing, my little foray into all the answers to all the questions was over, and I was back in the land of unknowing.
I don’t specifically recall colored lights- But I do remember an intense light- The last thing I remember clearly was sitting up in the hospital bed- telling my folks I was about to throw up- my m om ran and got the something to throw up in After doing so i grabbed the edges of the bed because the bed started flip flopping end for end (I was wicked dizzy from the fever)- and then everything got really bright- and i felt myself descending into hell- I remember looking up and seeing the world disappear- then i was in a new place- that was completely dark- I remember sounds- bells- which i ‘had to count’ as a ‘test’ (who knows- maybe it was the doc asking me if i could hear something to see if i was with it or not- could been i suppose- it just sounded like a ringing bell that i had to count)
I did have another incident where a bleeding ulcer came close to taking my life as well- in that case, before i passed out- I only remember grabbing ahold of the sink and thinking “Oh man, this isn’t good” and that was it- I came to wedged between toilet and wall- blood everywhere- even on the ceiling- I don’t know what happened after I grabbed the sink, but it musta made one heck of a racket- I didn’t see anything this time no visions or light- Perhaps I wasn’t as close to death as previous experience- but i didn’t experience anything weird visually that time- I’m thinking the synapses were ok this time- which just reinforced my feeling about the first time being due to synapses-