Not everyone wants redemption.
BTW, this close relative I mentioned before is a Deacon in his church. I'm proud that he turned out well and he also raised a very good daughter, with his wife.
Another thing, this "close relative" is my brother. And yes he is academically smarter then me. I'm academically declined, mechanically inclined.
Richard Feynman LSD, Marijuana, Ketamine
Feynman was always careful about drug use, for fear of what it might do to his brain giving up alcohol, for example, when he began to exhibit symptoms of addiction. In Surely Youre Joking, Mr. Feynman!, he writes, You see, I get such fun out of thinking that I dont want to destroy this most pleasant machine that makes life such a big kick. Its the same reason that, later on, I was reluctant to try experiments with LSD in spite of my curiosity about hallucinations.
Nevertheless, Feynmans curiosity got the best of him when he became acquainted with none other than John C. Lilly and his sensory deprivation tanks. Feynman experimented briefly with LSD, ketamine and marijuana, which he used to bring on isolation-induced hallucinations more quickly than he could when sober.