I have a friend who had an abortion while in college. Her boyfriend at the time wanted no kids and brought great pressure on her to abort the baby. She was not on good terms with her family and decided to give in to his demands.
Although she rarely talks about the abortion I believe she still can’t get over it. She accepted Christ and I have told her repeatedly if you ask for forgiveness the Lord casts that sin as far as the east is from the west, you are beating yourself up for something that had been forgiven. Since her college days she has married and has several beautiful children and is a church going, kind hearted woman. But I have no doubt she would tell you that abortion was not anything to be proud of, it still causes her pain decades later.
Many, many years ago, before my ex and I married, we were young and stupid and swayed by the mores of the times. We had an abortion. Neither of us are “over it”. It is a stain that lasts forever no matter how much I believe that Christ has forgiven the sin, I believe I will still need to atone for it in the hereafter.