You had 29 years to figure out that Bourbin is not an answer but a poor substitute to deeper issues.
Actually I don't drink very much and did not get onto the Bourbon kick until after my wife had the affair with a married man who told her he was separated and who lets say had more assets than me.
Regarding the deeper issues, they would be a post menopausal hypergamous wife who became bat shit crazy which I did not fully understand until recently. Go to Reddit the Red Pill and educate yourself. Thanks for playing.