I thnk it might have been suicide too. He told the concert goers who were applauding him able to perform (he had been sick and rushed from his plane to a hospital a day before) to “Hold your sympathy for a couple days” or something.
I think he couldn’t do it any more. He was not a partier. He got addicted from trying to mask his pain. It’s easy to do.
I’ve been given morphine in the hospital for brain surgery, and heavy oxys for at home afterwards. I know when to stop taking them. It is that moment when you don’t feel any pain but you are going to go take one because you “might feel pain later. “ BOOM. That is when the drug starts talking. I don’t want that conversation.
After C sections they give you those wonderful shots of what is it, Demerol? But after the first one, the C pain got kind of “familiar” to me and doable. So for baby 3 I only took the one shot. And for baby 4 I refused all pain Med once I was back in the room. They were shocked. I was not being a hero. I wanted to be alert for my precious baby and the pain was really familiar and I knew it would get less every day. So I didn’t need it.
I’ve been given morphine in the hospital for brain surgery, and heavy oxys for at home afterwards. I know when to stop taking them. It is that moment when you don’t feel any pain but you are going to go take one because you “might feel pain later. “ BOOM. That is when the drug starts talking. I don’t want that conversation.
Very insightful and I totally agree. I’ve had some severe traumatic injuries in my life and have been given the hardest of hard core opioids for pain. You must keep up the medication levels to combat the pain but there comes a time to tolerate the pain and step away from using the drugs as a crutch. I live in abject pain on a day to day basis from my latest injury, but I don’t use any meds very rarely aspirin or ibuprophin. It would be easy to give in to the monster and be an addict, but I would rather live my own life than be a slave to drugs.