I’m not apologizing.
That he initiated “suicide by cop” doesn’t negate their desire & plan to accommodate him.
That they planned to kill him doesn’t negate his willful exposure to likely death when he didn’t have to.
Most of what I just listed occurred _before_ anyone shot at him. What he did after being shot at reflects the decisions he made earlier - to wit, he knew they would ambush him, and he would behave in a manner assuring they would kill him.
He had already been shot at when we join the in-truck video in progress.
So, you're wrong.
Your "list" is balderdash.