Most of my family has died. I’ve done it (spent Christmas and other holidays alone) several times.
Pick up a Bible and read the Gospel According to John and the Psalms.
Hang in there.
I grew up in a boisterous large family..lots of uncles and aunts..lots of cousins....
but I moved to be near my husbands family and there just weren't very many aunts and uncles and cousins for my kids growing up and now that they're grown up, I really miss the old Christmas time...
top it off, my only two grandchildren can't be here for Christmas and my son is going thru divorce and he'll probably be by himself at Christmas since he lives across the state and the pass (Snoqualmie) has been closed off and on....
oh I have all the trappings of a Merry Christmas....just can't get the inner attitude right...
Been there too. Laid off, Nasty nasty divorce, parents passed away, siblings feuding and not speaking, living in a summer cabin graciously offered by a cousin, but not winterized... Sometimes it takes God to remove everything to get our attention.
It was just Him and me. Best Christmas ever. Total re-adjustment of my heart and thinking.
“Pick up a Bible and read the Gospel According to John and the Psalms” - great advice!