I don’t really like to express much about my personal life on an online forum, but I would like to say something that might help you. Over two years ago I was diagnosed with cancer on both kidneys and on my pancreas. I didn’t think that I would be around very long and I prayed for a little time to settle my affairs and to try to help my wife and son prepare for when I would no longer be around. The most important thing then was time. I just wanted some time.
Fortunately there was a drug available that was fairly new and was used to treat kidney cancer. The drug did not cure the cancer but it pretty much stopped it from spreading and even reduced it in some areas.
Recently I had a change on my pancreas which meant that the drug might be running it’s course and now I have to change over to another drug. I am not sure if this drug is going to work as well, but looking back I realized that I was given what I had prayed for, time. Over two years. I look at time now as a very precious commodity. At night I thank God for giving me another day and in the morning I thank Him for giving me another opportunity to experience life.
Maybe you haven’t done what you were planning because deep down you realize that there is something in your your life that is important. And maybe with a little more time you can work it out. Time is your best friend. I wish you well.
What a powerful post.
My prayers are with you.