Prayers for you
I've been dealing with this stuff for so long now it is just a way of Life. No matter what, I'm the luckiest guy walking.
My Late Mother used to tell me “Some People are better off than you and some People are worse off than you, that's Life”. Believing that eliminates both Envy and Fear.
I watched my Late B-I-L deal with Cancer of the Esophagus. If there is a worse Disease, I wouldn't know. It was a grueling five Years but he fought the good fight. Radiation, Chemo and the most heinous Surgery and Recovery but he still kept a good attitude. When I was diagnosed with CLL, he was devastated.
He said to me, it's not fair, you didn't do anything. Yep, I lived a pretty clean Life, no Smoking, Drinking of Drugs, just worked.
My B-I-L did the opposite before I met him and it contributed to his Illness. He did a lot of damage to himself and one day it got him. I was there when he was diagnosed and I was there the moment he died.
Hardest working guy I ever met and he dealt with a lot of pain in his Life, but he was always there for me and I for him. We were friendly, but we became best Friends after his Diagnosis. He died in 2007 and I miss him to this day, even when he drove me crazy with his annoying Habits. LOL
What I'm dealing with is a walk in the Park. I am blessed.
You take good care my FRiend.