Suicide is NOT an option. How can one ask for forgiveness for doing the sin “Thou shalt not kill” when one is already dead?
I definitely don’t want to spend eternity in the “infernal regions.”
I went through terrible times as well. It helped to pray constantly for the grace to make the right choices and find forgiveness. I took a second job that involved being around a lot of people, which was a huge help. Those times taught me to live in small increments and look for fellowship wherever it was offered. I feel much freer now than I would have, unafraid, and grateful. Also have a close friend, former navy type, who went through a terrible divorce after 35 yrs of marriage last year. We were worried for his survival at the time, but this year he just told us that “Life is Good!” Give it time. There is a lesson in this for you. Meanwhile, you have our prayers.
Good. I will keep you in my prayers.